Sunday, 27 September 2015
it can be a hard hard struggle to not let negative thoughts and anxieties build up until they spill out of you in a horrible manner, in ways that you can't describe or convey properly because you don't understand yourself. it's hard to not let everything push you into a corner and make you want to give up. everything is fucked, everything is unfair, everything is against you, everything is hard, you're alone and no one understands.
you are not alone xo
Tuesday, 15 September 2015
Saturday, 27 June 2015
Mr Hedgehog is my fourth installment in my Learning To Grow series. Having an allotment is the funnest thing i think i've ever been part of and i never truly realised how great it could be until i saw it all first hand. the sheer imagination that goes into each person's space is incredible and inspiring. i'm very slowly learning how to garden, and have mainly spent the last year building raised beds, fixing sheds etc. the thing i love most about it is the higgle-de-piggle-de nature in which you can approach it all. it's D.I.Y. but there's no rules, no measurements, no restrictions, just fun-ness.
i'm going to write poems to go alongside these pictures to encourage everyone to give it a go themselves because it really has given me a new outlook on life, and after battling depression pretty much my whole adult life, i'd say the allotment has been the best therapy i've had. it's a constant reminder that fun and happiness can be had without having to spend any money, that human interaction is bullshit* and that there are endless possibilities to what we can do creatively if we're left alone without the everyday distractions of life.
i hope you enjoy these pictures as much as i enjoy drawing them. i hope they inspire you to put your computer down and go out gardening**
*human interaction is not bullshit, sometimes you just need a break from it, you know?
**but pick up your computer once you're done and come back and see more of my drawings. irony. xo
Monday, 1 June 2015
Saturday, 23 May 2015
Saturday, 16 May 2015
Friday, 15 May 2015
Monday, 11 May 2015
this is the first time i've done this; revisited an old character i've drawn and catch up with how they're doing. i think mainly because it reflects my own straight of mind so much.
depression lurks underneath the surface, ready to engulf you like an massive fucking tsunami when you're least expecting. it's so very easy to let it consume you. anxiety leads to depression, depression leads to anxiety, repeating the circle. you hurt yourself to feel something because you're numb from your medication or your lack of fucking sleep. you hurt yourself to get attention because you struggle to express to people (or yourself) what's going on in your head. you hurt yourself because you think you deserve it. you hurt yourself to kill yourself.
i'm sure more people than i can imagine struggle with that constant urge to bash your own head in.
the important thing is to know you're not alone, and there are people who can help you turn this energy into something positive. never be ashamed or afraid to go to the doctors and talk.
talk to the people who love you. talk to anyone. talk talk talk.
anyway, this guy has been on a journey, and come out the other end. he's got himself fixed up, he's eating, he's healing and he has a much more healthy outlook on life. i enjoyed drawing both these pictures and especially the idea of ageing with the character. revisiting the character and giving him more of a story. i may do it again xo
Friday, 8 May 2015
Wednesday, 29 April 2015
Sunday, 26 April 2015
Tuesday, 21 April 2015
Sunday, 12 April 2015
Monday, 6 April 2015
Thursday, 2 April 2015
Monday, 15 December 2014
Tuesday, 2 December 2014
Friday, 14 November 2014
here's a commission i just finished for my beloved allotment husband Barnaby and his wonderful girlfriend Helen, two very dear pals of mine. it combines Barnaby's favourite elements from the first two allotment pictures i drew and also includes fun little details that are specifically inspired by our place, our little home from home xo