Sunday, 30 January 2011

moments wasted

the biggest example of a moment blown in my life. april 6th 2006 The Evens, a two piece band made up of hardcore and straight edge godfather Ian Mackaye and his wife, played in the canteen of KIAD in Canterbury. Ian Mackaye in Canterbury. Ian Mackaye; the man who changed my fucking life, in Canterbury! i was in the art uni canteen, sat cross-legged dunking biscuits in coffee, two metres away from the Minor Threat and Fugazi legend, in complete disbelief. i didn't know The Evens music, still don't, i was too busy pinching myself to listen to the music. it was like dreams coming true (apart from there was no Filler or Seeing Red....the list goes on). as the set came to an end i saw some kids filtering up to Mackaye with MT records to sign and cameras for photos and i thought to myself "i bet autographs are something Ian Mackaye doesn't really dig, i bet he has certain views on autographs. yeah, those kids suck" and as more kids surrounded him with their records i started to get nervous; i knew i was going to approach him with kind words that'd leave him feeling humbled and we'd have shared this brilliant moment and it would have been a real moment in my life.
but being the useless, bumbling idiot that i am; i, of course, ruined it.

i put my arm over THE Ian Mackaye's shoulders and said "i fucking love you, mate".

then i turned bright red, and left. i wonder if Ian remembers our moment. not fucking likely.